daily i must watch tht my survival mechanisims arent causing havoc in my present life..and usually its takes a lot to notice..mostly i get twigged by the nightmares. then i get the ..omg.i am so fked..(this can last for awhile) eventually with the help of my friends i get thru whatever the hell i got myself into..sometimes im pretty freakin tired...the good side is on good days its amazing..magical if u know what i mean :) ..so..hello to u all and blessed be ect. :D