Sometimes when i share i say the first thing that comes into my head... what came into my head just now was the movie "Wild".
This movie was a real rite of passage for a very sick person. I did not have the same sickness, but I realised so closely to the journey,
and the process that came out of that.
Cheryl Strayed is a great writer, and Reese Witherspoon is a great actress. The latter was in our valley last week, doing a film shoot-
so that is probably why "wild" sprung to mind.
I think of my own rite, or rites into health. Even today i have checks on my own codependency... but the awareness is there- my need and desire to help and rescue people.... When this happens today I try to reach inwards, and discern why this impulse is here. Not always successful. But sometimes, like today, I can reflect... and maybe grow.
My SO got into a recovery path 4 or 5 years ago- after a crisis... my years of group work kicked in... this time round I instinctively knew the moves... and I had learned how to wait- how to get my timing right.
I have learned that intimacy can also be termed 'in-time-acy' and that it can apply to every facet of my life- not just physical sexual stuff.
At the moment I am looking at broader issues... things going on last century, and especially during the years of my life- getting me an overview.
As I said in my first thread- CODA I ... I am not sure at all if I am set up for a CODA group... but then this uncertainty goes both ways- both towards yes, and also towards no... today I do not blast away with the old 'my way or the highway' mindset. Even towards myself... ...
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