I'm new to this group- not new to CODA. I am feeling so badly and hurt and every emotion seems to be magnified. I suffer from anxiety and depression and everything has spiked for the worse this past week. I am living in a toxic environment and am now having panic attacks from it- I don't feel safe yet I don't exactly want to move out because both are equally terrifying. I am overwhelmed and keep stressing myself out- negative self-talk, beating myself up, obsessing, and feeling powerless and helpless. I am here to learn from others, to get much needed support, and to start the focus on me and taking care of myself and making myself accountable to myself and to all of you to just show up.
I am also new and trying to figure out how this all works. I have not been to a CODA face to face meeting, but have done online meetings. Anyway, I hope you are doing better and things are improving for you. I would like to work the steps but can't seem to do it on my own.