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  aww The way I get treated in this world reflects my own reality.

Talk therapy, or group sharing can only go so far.

I need to walk the talk as well- as best I can.

My old girl-friend, K. turned to me for support- for an existential threat to her life- breast cancer.

This could throw me around badly, as I respond and get involved.

Offering empathy and support.

Maybe gentle encouragement, if she does find a way to address the cancer.

We have been in daily contact and made our respective peace with each other.

But today- I decided to send her this message:-

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[Long] Hi K. - there will be no song at the end of this-but there should be in later ones, for sure.

nd because you turned to me, because of an existential threat to your life- it has triggered me- in a healthy way-to address an existential threat to my life, though of a different kind...

...we do know each other, and each other's lives pretty well...

...for me the threat of abandonment runs really deep... and it scares me- and anyone who gets close to me...

because i makes me push others way- when I shouldn't at all!

when Was 7 8 or 9 I suffered from bad neglect...getting out of a wet bed- and getting back into a damp bed at night.

The winters were terrible Terrifying, because i thought I was going to die.I always had migraine, but also feelings of cold I could not get over.

I thought I was going to die of cold last winter.

I thought I was going to die of cold last winter.

Until one day the bed and mattress was gone- and there was a bunk instead.me and three brothers shared two bunks- and over the summer holidays wi topped and tailed with four boy cousins.

How it came to be was another long story- but these four cousins ended up becoming brothel-fodder as her grew up.

changing their gender, as they went along-

changing their gender, as they went along-

which made me extremely angry- suspicious of society and radical as I grew up...

my efforts have taken me most of a lifetime... to shuck off and learn to live and to trust...

Rain overnight- nice sunny day looming up...

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-- Edited by DavidG on Saturday 25th of September 2021 06:51:04 PM

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 ...ah, well, that worked out okay, for me... aww ...



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