At the end of the week, I will be turning in my leased vehicle and hopefully buying something new. The last time I did this, I was going through my divorce (had another month to go before it was final) and I effing broke down and asked my husband to help me, which he did. We'd been doing it this way for the past 26 years.
I have it in my head that this process is something impossible for me to do on my own, that somehow, I am not equipped to do it. Perhaps the character defect that gives me the most trouble is believing that I'm just not good enough, everyone else is better than I am. (I even noticed this at my AA meeting last night, I started feeling inferior, thinking I'm not even good at being an alcoholic!)
Why do I feel like I need a man in my life to help me do this? Can I do it "wrong??" My husband is in sales, he is brilliant, can talk circles around anyone, and is very successful in his career. And his brother is a general manager of a car dealership in Chicago, we always consulted him in the past. The man I am dating is in Europe this week. So I'm on my own, trying to do something I've never done before.
My sponsor told me to bring God into it, start praying. (I decided to give thanks in advance for the entire experience) Then she told me to write down what I need in a car, become clear about what I need. I did that last night and I spent the morning googling information and visiting a dealership....
Anyway, just feeling alone and wanted to grab some fellowship hands. I think I can do this.... I think I can.
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"See the work. Do the work. Stay out of misery." -Maharishi
You CAN! :) Just try to go in feeling confident. Have a pretty good idea of what type of car you're looking for. SUV? Minivan? Sports car? Economical? Fuel efficiency? Four wheel drive? Do things like color, interior, stereo, cupholders matter to you? Know exactly how much you are willing to spend.
Then, just pray and then go have fun with it! Think how liberating it will be to be driving home in YOUR new car, that you selected just for you. :) Heather
Thanks for the support Heather! I did get a car last night! It wasn't my goal to rush, but... you know how they like to close the deal. Once he hit my number, I figured I should just do it. Besides, I already told God I wanted to be able to get to Michigan next week to see my kids, I have the week off.
I'm proud of myself, I went to two different dealerships. Ordinarily I feel intimidated by numbers (I am not very left brain, lol) but at the second dealership, the guy hands me what he presented as an outstanding offer to beat the competition. I told him it was actually MORE expensive with the down-payment. Methinks he was surprised that I caught it... dang, I am too!!
bwahahaha!!
Seriously, it's another case of God doing for me what I cannot do for myself. Anyway.....
I was surprised I ended up with a red car, been doing charcoal grey for the last 6 years. I decided red is the color for Root chakra... should help to keep me grounded. I've always given a name to my cars, energetically I believe it keeps me safe on the road.... that will be the fun part.....
" Pray and have fun......" I'm going to take that suggestion, Heather, thank you.
-- Edited by gladlee on Tuesday 24th of May 2011 10:33:34 AM
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"See the work. Do the work. Stay out of misery." -Maharishi
Gladlee, Nicely done! The opposite of fear is faith. You brought your HP into the process and he delivered. You took action by doing your homework. You walked through your fear and you have grown by doing so. My Sponsor has taught me that fear is false evidence appearring real. That most of our fears are unfounded and are a derivitive(sp?) of our self centeredness. I'm proud of you. Keep trucking on...........
Hooray! so happy for you! :))) I can see you driving down the road to Michigan in your red convertible with your hair blowing in the breeze and Judas Priest "Heading out to the Highway" blasting on your stereo! (Ok, I took creative license with this one, lol!) Anyway, enjoy your road trip to visit your kids. That is awesome! What an inspiration you are to me in facing your fears. Peace! Heather
