I started some step work with a friend last night it brought the focus back to me and off my alcoholic partner. Reading from the work book it said I was powerless over my disease SMACK I do not tru;ly believe that I have acceoted I am sick. I know on an intelligence level but I keep slipping back into denial. One of the questions was about denial and I realised another a ha moment about comments people have made about my behaviours and how i ignore them. Can we ever truly concentrate on our recovery as a co dependent if we have people with addictions around us, will I keep slipping into denial and looking at then trying to fix them its less painful. Last night I felt very anxious after doing this work , I am going to keep on with it though now I need to find a sponsor in CODA to talk all this over with.
