In the past I saw the good in everyone. I made excuses for unnacceptable behaviour i could always see why someone did some thing, they had a bad childhood, they were in pain, they were sick;. This lead me to recovery I never had boudaries and did not know how to take care of me.
My selfworth is rising and I have been experiencing lots of anger. I want to take care of me. The excuses for other dont seem to be coming as easily. I am isolating I am very negative. I want to achieve balance.
I want to be able to have a relationship with others yet protect myself. I am having a problem with a cloe friend she thinks I do not care but she is quite selfih and I have always done all the work. I do not want to loose her but I need her to understand I have changed and it takes two to work at a friendship. She said she is not ready to talk about it, I am praying I hope I handle this appropriatley.
I can relate. A lot of my relationships are off balance since I have discovered boundaries and since I have begun "Putting me first". My friends and family don't know what happened to the lovely Nice who use to take care of their needs and desires; the Nice who would drop her chores to make sure things for others got done on time. I've stopped a lot of it. I'm asking people to do their own tasks. I'm asking people to schedule with me lunch dates and rides rather than being spontaneous. So I haven't withdrawn completely; but I am getting more balance in my days because I'm not responding to everyone's perceived emergencies. It's working fine for me; but there is some grumbling in the peanut gallery. Their lives have changed because I am changing. I think my program must be working :)
