No feelings were expressed at home when I was a child. I learned not to feel. I developed ways to keep my feelings down. I'd get depressed instead of angry, anxious instead of scared or sad or over-eat. Now I'm learning it's ok to feel but it's still hard. If I feel depressed & anxious I still want to binge. I identify my dysfunctional coping mechanisms as a signal I have a feeling to deal with. With my Higher Power's help, I ask what I need & what I can do for myself to meet it. CoDA Daily Meditations.
Oh yes, I can identify. Eating, withdrawing, fighting were common reactions here. It's only been since last year that I've understood the connection with food. I've been attending overeaters anon meetings when I can and also read literature quite often. My head is a lot better now. I also have a tendency to go the other way too. Overexercising, not eating enough, so I really need to maintain balance with it all.
